complicated...
It happens at the begining of every month. I knew and know it. It can't be helped. I miss friends who were there until just a couple of weeks ago. I can't get used to this new situation.I feel as if I'm in a pool where my legs can't reach the bottom. I try to swim(as you know, I'm not good at swimming), but on the way I give up swimming and fall into the water. This session makes me feel especially tight. Teachers whom I respected don't take our classes any more. Many students of one nationality came here. That's why the atmosphere totally changed. Even though I've been here for two monthes, I feel this is an unknown world. I'm always confused in my feelings. I'm eager to talk with old friends,but I know i shouldn't be inside my memory and I should open my heart to the new circumstances. I just always feel there's something missing. I'm not confident enough to continue this session. Am I being tested by this to see if I have a good character?? I don't know what to do. Though I feel I want to get out of here, my mind shouts at me "Don't give up. Never give up." I get more and more complicated....
posted by Hit0m1 @ 1:52 AM
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